It’s been a while. I have been on quite a healing journey since I last posted. 2019 has been good to me; challenging and rewarding. I’d like to start sharing some of my experiences here. Perhaps something will resonate with someone and they won’t feel quite as alone. Loneliness is an epidemic and through all of this, my compassion for people has grown so much. You never know what someone is dealing with. As I always say, be kind to yourself and others.
As many of you know, I was diagnosed with breast cancer a little of over a year and a half ago. During my mastectomy surgery, I had an allergic reaction and ended up in icu on life support for 2 days.
11 months later, I had another surgery to remove my ovaries as my cancer was estrogen driven and doing so would reduce my chance of recurrence. But the thoughts of going under again brought me so much worry and anxiety. I was so scared that I would have another allergic reaction and I would die. I quickly realized that I couldn’t go into a full on panic attack every time someone mentioned a date past my surgery date. Every time I started to panic, I quickly pictured myself walking up normally in the recovery room and I would take three deep breaths to ground me. This helped me immensely. That whole process only increased my gratitude for the tribe around me. I made peace with the fact that I may die but that my daughters are surrounded by people who love them, people who I trust with my life, and they would be just fine. It was freeing and emotional, as you can imagine.
Once I did wake up in that recovery room. I was filled with a new lease on life. As my friend says “I am doing ALL of the things” to embrace life and never get sick again. I will be a 90 year old one boobed wonder doing yoga on the beach and I am going to die in my sleep with a smile on my face 😄❤️. As the ladies in the photo on the top of this page say “create your beautiful life”. I am doing just that.
“All of the things” include acupuncture, talk therapy, chiropractor, massage, energy healing, exercising, meditating, switching to natural home and body products, changing my diet, spiritual growth and most recently kundalini yoga. I can’t express how much this practice has come into my life at the perfect time that I needed it. If you’ve never tried it, it’s worth giving it a go. Words cannot adequately describe it.
I am travelling to Mexico on Saturday with my yoga teacher to attend a yoga and service retreat. I will volunteer at an orphanage, practice yoga and Qi gong daily, hike in the mountains and visit a sweat lodge. I think it is exactly what my body and spirit need to recharge. If I am allowed to take photos (I don’t know if the orphanage may have rules against that?) I will be sure to share my journey with you all.
Part of the mission is to support the sustainability and growth of an orphanage by funding rain catchers (water sustainability is a needed thing there), bringing supplies and donating our time. If you are moved to share the wealth on behalf of this experience, here is a link for you to check out (tax deductions): https://www.satnamfoundation.org/illumination.
Thank you so much for considering. I’ll be sure to give the children lots of love from y’all.
Until next time,
Only joy, only love!